Has To Stop

The quick breaks to office bathrooms to cry... has to stop.
The hatred towards him... has to stop.
Questioning myself because of all his abuses... have to stop.
Hating myself for being weak... has to stop.

There is no one else who can affect her the way he does. Despite all the things that she tried to not care it was just not that easy for her. Yes sometimes things don’t work out the way they are supposed to be, that’s not even bothering her much but what’s bothering her is the fact that he still continues to use her for his ego boost and she falls in the trap every time. The self loathing increases day by day and how much ever she tries to move ahead he brings her back to the same exact spot every time. Emotionally messes up – every morning feels like a struggle and every day a battle to put up a brave face, a big smile and an attitude that she is perfectly fine with her life.